thumbs

I am a 31 year old Momma to 3 kids and yes I am a thumb sucker! I have been my entire life. Since I was born I sucked my thumb. When I was about 12 my parents tried to end this by putting this nasty tasting crap on my thumbs but that didn't help I would suck my thumb till the taste was gone. Then they had this idea to duck tape socks on my hands .... UH NO I bit holes in them to get to my thumb. I used to be ashamed of this but not any more it is apart of me it's just another thing that makes me unique and I love it.



          THUMBS
The thumb suckers thumb
Make look wrinkled and wet
and withered and white as the snow
But the taste of the thumb
Is the sweetest taste yet
As only we thumb suckers know

Shel Silverstein

school starts :(

Tomorrow my baby boy starts kindergarten that will put all 3 of my kids in school and no more kids at home with Momma. This is awful in my world....I am devastated just thinking about it. I know it's a good thing for them to go but I miss them sooo much. It will be a very hard thing for me to walk out of that school with no one but myself. So today I plan of just driving my kids crazy with hugs and everything else so I guess tomorrow they will be glad to get away from me hahaha

music

Music is like a kid to me...I love it unconditionally it can do no wrong in my eyes. I like all kinds I couldn't pick a favorite song if you paid me, it's like saying ok now pick which kid is your favorite...UH NO!! I love them all the same. Haha I go through these phases with my music and I will play one album over and over and over for months and then a year later if I hear one of those songs it takes me to that part of my life then, I remember how it made me feel what I was doing when I would listen to it, who I was with. It can consume me and make me forget everything. I zone out when listening to music. I love to be in the car and just blast it out and sing along as loud as I can. I will say I'm not a bad singer, I just choose to not sing in front of most people. So to wrap it up I guess today has been a lot about music for me and how much I love it and I'm sure a lot of you feel the same way :)

It's A Great Job

I guess I'm just gonna complain about all these other douche bag so called "moms" that don't take care of their kids. I really don't care if this pisses you off cause if it does then the old saying goes the truth hurts. I have been a SAHM for 13 years and I do believe you can be a good Mom and have a job or stay home don't get me wrong there. I'm talking about these that will have children and act like they can't stand for them to be home. Or complain all the time that all they do is fight or get on their nerves. I've even heard of some that will have one and then get fixed so they don't have to have anymore....like they should in the first place! They complain that said kid gave them a stretch mark or cause them to have a belly roll. But don't forget the ones that are pissed when school is called off because to them school is a babysitter for them so they don't have to deal with the kids and as soon as they get home you hear them saying I can't wait till bed time. And of course there are the ones that let Grandma keep the kid so much it gets confused and calls Granny "Momma" and why shouldn't it when Granny keeps it more than Momma does...Geez I could just go on & on. I have 3 kids and LOVE them more than anything. I don't claim that I am a perfect Mom I'm far from it, and I don't claim to have perfect kids but I do try my best and even on our worst days it's still good. They are so much fun and I love every second I have with them. I hate when they have to go to school because it takes them away. When we have a snow day I'm more excited than they are cause I know that is a day we get to spend together! If you see me out you see my kids. I don't have help and I don't want it. I didn't have kids for someone else to raise them. They mean the world to me and I wouldn't change a single thing. Being a MOMMA is the best job in the entire world and I LOVE it

A friend gone to soon

In April my friend I have had my whole life had her 2nd baby, a week later she was gone. She passed away in her sleep at the age of 29 with a one week old baby, a 5 year old, a 11 year old step daughter and a husband she loved so much. She had a heart defect that no one even knew about. Her death has destroyed so many people. Her husband is just lost he now has 3 kids to take care of all alone. He is beyond depressed. Her Mother and Father are lost all they do is cry and drive around. Nothing will ever be the same for any of them or anyone that knew her. I am just a friend and I think about her every day I can't imagine how they feel. It just isn't fair I know we all want a reason or someone to blame....but there is no one or nothing that can change it. She is now gone and we can't bring her back no matter how much we want to. So be sure to tell everyone you love just how you feel don't wait till tomorrow because for some people tomorrow doesn't come.