October is not only breast cancer awareness but also pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. I guarantee you or someone you know has been through this. Something that stays with you forever it is a loss in every sense of the word. Sometimes just a kind word is all someone needs to hear, or a shoulder to cry on. It's just like any loss you don't get over it you just get through it.
I'm so glad that my children dare to be different. While most girls have long hair my daughter loves her pixie cut. When I see boys walking into school all wearing the exact same thing down to the socks and shoes, my son is happy with his star wars vans and a skull shirt. He's been picked on for not playing sports and all he says is I don't want to play sports. It doesn't bother him what they think. They all get judged for being different but what kind of world would it be if we were all the same. Embrace the differences and be the person you want not just to fit in with someone else.
When I look in the mirror I see a chubby girl with a cute face. I see plenty of flaws but in general I like myself. Yes I know I'm bigger than I need to be and I could work on a lot of things, but I like who I am. Then someone will take a picture of me and it's nothing like what I see when I look in the mirror. Why is that? I look 10 times bigger, everything just looks worse. I don't understand it. Am I seeing things or is it that bad really?
So today I went to a childs birthday party, while there I remembered why we don't do birthday parties. At my house we used to have parties for our kids but it just became too much so now we let them pick where they want to eat, they get cake and presents and we spend time together as a family. Which we all enjoy. But today we branched out and attended a party. There were so many screaming kids there, within 10 mins a kid throws up, and the moms are talking about how much money all this cost. At that point I was done. I'm sure this is great for some people but not me.
I know this year hadn't been the easiest for me emotionally. When I was dealing with all of it all I could think is here I am going about the day to day things that have to be done & my heart is in a million pieces. But I still do what I have to which means so do others. When you see someone at the grocery store you have no idea what's going on in their life. Yes, life goes on but it doesn't make it any easier. We should try to be more compassionate to others because they may be smiling on the outside but broken on the inside. It some times just means the world to have someone to talk to or say they care, or even offer a smile.
I never knew how gross boys were until I had one. As a mom who already had 2 girls, a boy was a new experience for me. One that I was excited to take on, that being said I had no idea how much fun I was in for. There's not one day that goes by that he doesn't Fart on someone in the family & find it hilarious. Today he told me he peed while brushing his teeth. (Eww) I have a brother and always thought the things he did were gross but my little guy has really brought that home. But as most women know most men are the same way so I guess they've always been that way. Raising boys can be fun and gross all at the same time. But I sure do love every minute of it
Yes, I gave up pants.... well in a sense. I am a big girl, I've never been thin and will never be thin. Even if I lose weight I will still not be thin. So what I'm getting at is if it zips and buttons around the waist I don't wear it. No, I'm not so fat I can't wear these things I just choose not to. Leggings & yoga pants are my favorite thing. So in a time where everyone I know is running for a hobby, or working out all day, I'm rocking yoga pants that have never seen yoga
